XNyxXi cant breathe.... ive put myself in the hospitable again..... ive clearly lost my mind.... im ignored and people act like im not there...... isolation, isnt being alone in a room, but being in a room full of people who dont acknowledge my existence... ne... morei cant breathe.... ive put myself in the hospitable again..... ive clearly lost my mind.... im ignored and people act like im not there...... isolation, isnt being alone in a room, but being in a room full of people who dont acknowledge my existence... need a confession? im guilty, i twisted the knife til they didnt stop bleeding........ can i please leave this place? i mean it. im not just saying it.... can i please die?
September 5, 2011
Ghost Genocide.
It's a shame that no one is grateful of being alive, but rather waste life like it's nothing. And Isolation means being by yourself, you don't want any sort of contact with the outside world of people. You're just being ignored.
XNyxXwhy would i be grateful for life? im abused, raped, im fucked up in the head bc i hear voices, i see how people have been killed or will be killed, everyday i have to listen to people say "look its the emo girl" "its the dumbass who cuts herself" "what a ... morewhy would i be grateful for life? im abused, raped, im fucked up in the head bc i hear voices, i see how people have been killed or will be killed, everyday i have to listen to people say "look its the emo girl" "its the dumbass who cuts herself" "what a waste of breath" "hey emo go kill yourself and do us all a favor", im hated by everyone, im not even kidding. today some kid came up to me who goes to my highschool and held me down, and screamed he wanted me to die. my family calls me a worthless slut, my rents gave up on me, my brother is dead, his best friend is dead, my boyfriend is dead, my best guy friend is dead, and im ignored or hated by everyone. my cousin, the "golden child" beats me, and rapes me, and has nearly killed me. hes held me down, and slit my wrists and cut an X over my heart then told people i did that to myself. he even through me in a bon fire. im lied to, im always backstabbed, NO ONE in the world gives a shit, im hurt by everyone, and i have trust issues bc of it. is that a life to be ... less
Somsphetno...its not.... but your wrong. i give a shit. i care about what happens to you. i would never lie to you, nor forsake you. i would never betray you. i wish i could be by your side as you go through the day. so that i can stop any bastard who tries to hu... moreno...its not.... but your wrong. i give a shit. i care about what happens to you. i would never lie to you, nor forsake you. i would never betray you. i wish i could be by your side as you go through the day. so that i can stop any bastard who tries to hurt you. i wish i could help...i wish i can help somehow. how can i help you? how can i prove i care?
September 6, 2011
Ghost Genocide.And? Yeah you get abused, and raped, but you should still be grateful that you can breathe, and look, honestly, I doubt you;d kill yourself, people that do that only want attention when they type up how much they think their life sucks on a website. Not t... moreAnd? Yeah you get abused, and raped, but you should still be grateful that you can breathe, and look, honestly, I doubt you;d kill yourself, people that do that only want attention when they type up how much they think their life sucks on a website. Not trying to be rude, but you are LUCKY compared to some people, other people don't even have a family, a bed to rest their heads, food to eat, fresh water to drink so honestly, you have no reason to cry over your life. And if you DO get raped, it's called calling the police. less
September 6, 2011
XNyxXeverytime i try to trust someone i always end up hurt. and i have called the police, its not just my cousin who has raped me.. be grateful i can breathe? i can barely do that with the way my asthma is. i dont do it for attention.. you doubt id kill myself... moreeverytime i try to trust someone i always end up hurt. and i have called the police, its not just my cousin who has raped me.. be grateful i can breathe? i can barely do that with the way my asthma is. i dont do it for attention.. you doubt id kill myself... you wanna bet? dont tell me to be grateful for a fucking shitty life like mine.
September 6, 2011
Ghost Genocide.
You are LUCKY compared to some people.
So you shouldn't complain about your life.
September 7, 2011
Somsphet
Ghost, thats enough. honestly, do you even know the whole story? no one should judge with only half the details. Nyx doesnt have to tell use everything. And Nyx, i hope soon i can find a way to proove i care what happens to you
XNyxXthats not even half. i barely even told you what happens to me. you have no idea what the fuck goes on in my life. lucky? im lucky? for all the shit that happens to me? ha. think what ever you want to think, go ahead, prove me wrong then. you never answe... morethats not even half. i barely even told you what happens to me. you have no idea what the fuck goes on in my life. lucky? im lucky? for all the shit that happens to me? ha. think what ever you want to think, go ahead, prove me wrong then. you never answered my question either.
September 8, 2011
Somsphet
A life to be grateful for? i thought i did answer that... but no, its not. :/
September 8, 2011
XNyxX
no, not that question... Ghost doesnt believe ill kill myself. i asked "wanna bet?" i never got an answer.
Somsphet
please, both of you stop it. Ghost, what if your wrong? and Nyx, please dont even think about it
September 8, 2011
XNyxX
no you dont want a bet? or yes you do want a bet?
and ive already thought about it many times.
September 8, 2011
Somsphet
Nyx please stop thinking about it then :(
September 8, 2011
XNyxXcant, im suicidal, ive come close to death, ive faced it, ive put myself in the hospitable, and i did kill myself in the hospitable, i remember going freezing from blood loss.. i saw myself outside my body, i remember seeing death.. i remember being broug... morecant, im suicidal, ive come close to death, ive faced it, ive put myself in the hospitable, and i did kill myself in the hospitable, i remember going freezing from blood loss.. i saw myself outside my body, i remember seeing death.. i remember being brought back to my body... >.> i cant stop thinking about death..
Ghost Genocide.For one, you don't see yourself outside your body when you die. LOL. Sorry but I can already tell you are a little kid and you just want attention, go cry and maybe kill yourself in the future, cause that only proves you are a coward and can't handle your... moreFor one, you don't see yourself outside your body when you die. LOL. Sorry but I can already tell you are a little kid and you just want attention, go cry and maybe kill yourself in the future, cause that only proves you are a coward and can't handle your life. Just because you are " emo " which is a music genre, you don't gotta bitch 24/7 about how much your life sucks. You're so dumb.
XNyxXoh im the dumbass? how the fuck do you know what you see when you die? have you ever been out on the streets alone when you were 7 to only be adopted bg an abusive family? have you been thrown in a bonfire? do you see the dead, hear their voices, and see ... moreoh im the dumbass? how the fuck do you know what you see when you die? have you ever been out on the streets alone when you were 7 to only be adopted bg an abusive family? have you been thrown in a bonfire? do you see the dead, hear their voices, and see peoples deaths? think im stupid, that im a coward. whatever. but dont tell me im fucking lucky compared to some people, until youve live a life like mine.
About Me
I'm blunt, sarcastic, sweet,
Serious, loving, caring
Stubborn, kind,
Random, strange, lovable, aggressive,
Brave, passionate, creative, sympathetic
(Can be a bitch if you are to me) and deep...
I write with what I feel, what
I have experienced,
What I know and who I am.
Poems are secret necessities living
In an unborn world that has
Yet to know dreams and poetry..
Words are my escape.
It's not okay to keep secrets.
It's not alright to tell lies.
The truth always has a way of revealing itself.
I love my music, which is any metal genre..
I am also the artist for a band called
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So you shouldn't complain about your life.
and ive already thought about it many times.